We booked the trip last February. At the time September seemed surreal. Are you sure we should go the last weekend? Sure. There’s no home football game, the Littles will be settled into school, and it’ll be nice to get away. We’ll need it by then, we reasoned.
I’ve never been to Colorado in the Fall. The aspen will be changing, the elk in rut, Rocky Mountain National Park will brim with a season we only read about in fairy tales. Autumn. A weekend alone. Just the two of us. Fly-fishing, writing, red wine, and relaxing. On the horizon in late September.
And then this happened.
And this.
We didn’t understand at first. Sun scorched, in the middle of a Texas drought, the news of flood and devastation in Colorado seriously didn’t register. But the images and stories persisted. We sat in disbelief, unable to comprehend what we were seeing and hearing. Tragedy from a distance doesn’t make sense. We kept on doing what we do, but our hearts ached for Colorado, especially Estes Park and our home away from home at the YMCA of the Rockies.
Our happy place was far from happy.
I wish I could say we had a plan from the get go. That we were wise or strong or giving enough to know what to do in the midst of chaos and tragedy. Honestly, we did what we were told. We cancelled our reservations for our long weekend at the cabin at the YMCA of the Rockies. We waited it out a day or two. Eventually Husband booked a fancy schmancy hotel in Vail. It’ll be nice to get away, we reasoned. Besides we already have the airline reservations.
Last Saturday morning, we both woke up unusually early. Both of us uneasy, me with a pit in my stomach. Long before the sun broke dawn, we had talked it out. We couldn’t go to Vail and sit fat and happy while our happy place was sad. Certainly we could do something. But what? What if we’re just a burden? What if they think we are just token weekend warriors trying to make good?
Our hearts told us what our minds could not reason. Go. Go and be. Be there. Help as needed. Show up.
As you read this, Husband and I will have just landed in Denver. The same flight we booked last February. Our September weekend still feels surreal. I’m not sure what God has planned, but I know He has a plan. We’ll be in Estes Park, helping our friends and family at the YMCA of the Rockies as they coordinate relief efforts and host evacuees and front line rescue teams.
As for our happy place? Estes Park and the surrounding area know a resiliency and strength that can make a Texan quiver in his boots. The mountains breed fortitude.
I’ll keep you posted as I can. In the meantime, will you join us in prayer for Colorado? For all those affected by the largest flood in the state’s history?
Wherever you are, be Mountain Strong!
Mia says
My prayers are with the two of you as you serve the people and place you love. God has opened your hearts to truly serve those in need. My prayers are for whatever jobs you do it will be for God’s glory!
Kristin says
Thank you, Mia. Grateful you are home with the Littles while we are in Estes. xo
Anne Harvey says
You got it, just be. During the hurricanes and floods in our area all many of us could do was listen and let folks talk their grief. We could only do with permission and clear direction. God will guide and with your hearts you will be and then when you leave folks will know they were loved by whatever means God shows you.
Kristin says
Anne, Thank you for your encouragement. We’ve been so blessed by just being and listening. Isn’t God so good like that!? 😉 xo
Nancy Franson says
Praying for you Kristin. May God surprise you with His goodness as you serve.
Kristin says
Nancy, thank you for your prayers. We feel them. And, I can’t wait to tell you about some of God’s surprises! 😉
Krista says
I wish you strength, patience, and courage to face the grief you will see and feel. I love you so much. You are there for a reason, help your neighbors and yourself to heal anyway you can. xoxo
Kristin says
Thank you, dear friend. xoox
Rita Green says
The ministry of Presence is a calling and I know the Lord will use it nightly. Two and a half years ago I came to Alabama after 77 tornadoes hit the state in one day. Your words are so true and pictures on TV or the NET cannot capture the magnitude of what your eyes see. Have been praying and will continue!!! I still keep in contact with the people I met and worked with then and they never forget those that set aside their lives to show the face of love and hope in the mist of destruction!
Kristin says
Rita,
It’s a God thing that you should mention the Ministry of Presence. That is exactly what we are called to. I have a longer story to share on “just being there” later. Thank you for your sharing your story and the encouragement. xoox